This Void Inside

Where the hell have I been?
Oh, how I wish you wouldn’t ask me
Been hiding in my safe place
Feeling sorry for myself
I don’t want you to see me sink the ship
That hasn’t sailed yet
I don’t think I could bare
The disappointment on your face
Got so many things lying around
So much that I wanna do
I plan everything ahead just so it can all fall through
Oh dear god, what am I doing?

There is this void inside, this void I’m trying to fill
I don’t know what it needs, just know that it is real
There is this void inside, this void I’m trying to heal
I don’t know what it wants, just know that it kills

But now I know that everything you see
Isn’t everything you need or what you want to be
Let’s make this clear, I’ve lost my path
But slowly, I am getting back on track

Where am I going?
I really don’t know at the moment
I don’t know what I want
Neither do I know what I need
I keep on losing myself
And whilst I’m trying to get back
I find myself alone in the woods again
What am I? Who am I? Where am I going?
The answers still keep on remaining unknown

But now I know that everything you see
Isn’t everything you need or what you want to be
Let’s make this clear, I’ve lost my path
But slowly, I am getting back on track

There is this void inside, this void I’m trying to fill
I don’t know what it needs, just know that it is real
There is this void inside, this void I’m trying to heal
I don’t know what it wants, just know that it kills

I don’t know what I’m doing
Really don’t know what I’m doing
No clue what I’m doing
Do you know what you’re doing?

This void inside will pass
This void, it will not last

© Melvin Hein